Yankee Hotel Foxtrot
is the album for my mood on this lovely october first. i love the weather. the cool in the air. the apartment feels cozy. have a little red wine buzz from my dinner out. i love the sunday night quiet. let me relish, for the moment, that i have no work lording over me. the fact that i can just take a bath, put on my pjs and watch tv for the next few hours before bed.
is it okay to be okay? i feel so chilled out lately. things aren’t perfect but i don’t have that sense of lack or longing that i always used to have. is it a part of getting older — learning to he happy in the moment? i slept until eleven today. i can even take naps now. think this says a lot for my mental state … the fact that i can let go and surrender. for so long i was trying not to let anything happen. i wanted to control everything. but no mas. now i am going with the flow, and it feels good.